Love the way you lie

Really love this song!

Truly describe my relationship with husband in our early days before we got married.

Torture our self because you love him so much! Yeah..modernization of love is blind!

Eminem ft Rihanna – Love the way you lie

[Chorus - Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that’s all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that’s all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Eminem - Verse 1]
I can’t tell you what it really is, I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now it’s a steel knife in my windpipe
I can’t breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it’s like I’m in flight
High off her love, drunk from my hate, it’s like I’m huffin’ paint
And I love it the more I suffer, I suffocate
And right before I’m about to drown, she resuscitates me, she fuckin’ hates me
And I love it, “wait, where you goin’?”
“I’m leavin’ you,” “no you ain’t come back”
We’re runnin’ right back, here we go again
So insane, cause when it’s goin’ good it’s goin’ great
I’m superman with the wind in his back, she’s Lois Lane
But when it’s bad it’s awful, I feel so ashamed I snap
Whose that dude? I don’t even know his name
I laid hands on her
I never stoop so low again
I guess I don’t know my own strength

[Chorus]

[Eminem - Verse 2]
You ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe
When you with em you meet and neither one of you even know what hit em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills used to get em
Now you’re getting fuckin’ sick of lookin’ at em
You swore you’d never hit em, never do nothin’ to hurt em
Now you’re in each other’s face spewin’ venom in your words when you spit em
You push pull each other’s hair
Scratch claw hit em throw em down pin em
So lost in the moments when you’re in em
It’s the face that’s the culprit, controls you both
So they say it’s best to go your seperate ways
Guess that they don’t know ya
Cause today that was yesterday
Yesterday is over, it’s a different day
Sound like broken records playin’ over
But you promised her next time you’ll show restraint
You don’t get another chance
Life is no nintendo game, but you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that’s why they call it window pane

[Chorus]

[Eminem - Verse 3]
Now I know we said things, did things, that we didn’t mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
But your temper’s just as bad as mine is, you’re the same as me
When it comes to love you’re just as blinded
Baby please come back, it wasn’t you, baby it was me
Maybe our relationship isn’t as crazy as it seems
Maybe that’s what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though
Come inside, pick up the bags off the sidewalk
Don’t you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk?
Told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball
Next time I’m pissed I’ll aim my fist at the drywall
Next time there won’t be no next time
I apologize even though I know it’s lies
I’m tired of the games I just want her back
I know I’m a liar if she ever tries to fuckin’ leave again
I’ma tie her to the bed and set this house on fire

[Chorus]
[End]

Although now we’re good..haha mostly like normal couples.. I know the feeling. The feeling that you almost can not stand but you can’t leave or you don’t wanna leave…

So What… ? O_o

Born – Walk – Go to School – College – Work -Married – Get Pregnant – Have Baby – Have another baby etc…

All life and traditional phase that we have to follow (orderly). Sorry to mention it traditional, not being a jerk and act modern. But kinda sick of it.

Here the situation. I already through out  those steps until getting married. I don’t say I do not wanna any baby. I do. We try. But hey, we still don’t get it. So what?  Maybe, we just like Carrie and Mr. Big from Sex and the City.. We love the way we are. And happy of course

You people can showing off  your babies, telling stories…

Believe me, I have no jealousy at all. Because we can do it also, we can make fun too, you know? We can watch midnight movie without bothering our parents. We can do traveling wherever we want without worries or have to pack lots of diapers.  We still can focus on our carrier, can come home late at night, spend our money to things that we love not what we have to love. Yeah..you got my point, rite?

I do see my self build complete family with babies and stuff. We try and still try…haha you can trust me on this. But, we enjoy our live now also. So, what ever… I will do it with fun.

Please listen

If you asked me, I will say I DO love my country. But, it seem my country and almost all people in it doesn’t want to be love or hard to be love. They keep destructing their self and not even move forward. People always point their finger at someone’s fault, accuse them making any mistake and not even bother to see theirselve in the mirror. Ditambah lagi banyak orang yang tidak mau menerima kritik dan masukan dari orang lain secara baik-baik. Bahkan tidak jarang ingin mencelakakan orang yang memberikan kritik tsb.

Sigh. If I could say something..itu sangat memalukan.

Can I say something? Buat orang yang mengkritik, please kritik lah sesuatu yang memang sudah ada dengan bukti akurat or even bukti fisik bahwa itu memang salah ataupun pantas dikritik. Tidak sesuai dengan kehendak anda bukan berarti salah! Please consider bahwa cara berpikir orang berbeda, prioritas orang pun berbeda-beda or even consider that he/she even DO NOT KNOW if it’s wrong. Kemudian sampaikan lah kritik dengan bahasa yang baik, trust me mengkritik dengan bahasa yang tidak behave membuat orang yang dikritik bukannya senang malah bisa empet. Jika bisa, sekalian berikan SOLUSI dalam kekurangan yang dia lakukan. Setidaknya bisa menjadi bahan pertimbangan dan menunjukkan bahwa anda benar-benar peduli dan bukan hanya omong kosong ataupun bertindak sebagai provokator.

Please also remember that they not priyayi, santo or somekind of holly person that constantly make mistake. Even you can make mistake, remember?

And, buat orang yang dikritik. If you think it’s not your fault. Give clear and truthfull evidences. Showed it to that person, if its needed give them your reason why you’re doing this or that. And if you think that you are wrong, admit it. Be a gentleman/girl.

I think the key here is.. LISTEN.

I’m not trying to talk about politics, economics or else here. But, I really do wish that my country could do better in the upcoming days.

The Only Exception

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I’d never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we’ve got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I’ve always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I’m
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I’ve got a tight grip on reality
But I can’t
Let go of what’s in front of me here
I know you’re leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it’s not a dream

Ohh—

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I’m on my way to believing
Oh, And I’m on my way to believing

By: Paramore

Suamiku itu kuping, bukan cantelan panci ya

“Kan udh gw bilang”

“Makanya kalo istri ngomong itu didengerin”

That’s what I always keep saying for past few days. Gw kadang-kadang berpikir mungkin suami gw ngerasa benda yang bisa membuka dan menutup serta mengeluarkan suara, terletak di bawah idung mancung ini cuma aksesoris pemanis belaka.

Percayalah wahai para kaum Adam…kami ini memang dianugrahi bakat untuk meramalkan apa yang terjadi melalui indra yang selalu kami asah. Indra perasaan, feeling, insting.. you name it lah!

Ceritanya suami ku itu mengalami otot robek (ini istilah dia yang pada dasarnya emang sok tau) sehingga mengalami kesulitan dalam berjalan. Singkat cerita, otot robek nya ini dibawa ke pak Haji untuk di pijet-pijet. Hmmm jangan dipikir persoalan bakalan beres begitu saja. Pak Haji yang baik hati itu memberikan oleh-oleh minyak kelapa. Gak tanggung-tanggung; 2 botol! Sambil berpesan untuk selalu di pijet tiap malem.

Sekarang apa? Gw yang ketempuhan pegel-pegel tiap malem karena kudu mijit-mijit. Ikhlas sih ikhlas…tapi meskipun ikhlas, pegel nya teteep aja kerasa. Udah gitu, bawelnya minta ampuuun. Gw yakin kalau tukang pijit profesional pun jika dibawelin gitu dari awalnya buta ampe mlotot marah-marah. “Jangan dua arah gitu dong mijitnya, searah aja”; “ya..bagian itu yang sakit”; “jangan cepet-cepet dong” dan lain-lain yang membuat sesi pemijitan yang awalnya penuh kecerian berakhir dengan alis berkerut dan hati dongkol seorang istri manis nan baik hati.

Belum lagi aksi gombalisasi yang dilakukan suamiku itu. “Sayang, kamu berbakat deh buat jadi tukang pijit….” WHAAATTTT!!! Rasanya minyak gosoknya pengen gw minumin ke dia aja biar sekalian cepet sembuh.

Duuh sayang lain kali coba ya pergunakan dua cantelan panci yang mejeng masing-masing satu di sisi muka kamu itu..

#Nowplaying

My Ipod Playlist Now…

Song Title	Singer
4 Minutes	Glee
7 Days	Craig David
9 In The Afternoon	Panic At The Disco
According To You	Orianthi
Alice	Avril Lavigne
Already Gone	Kelly Clarkson
Anthem Dance Floor	Good Charlotte
Baby	Justin Bieber
Best I Ever Had	Vertical Horizon
Best in Me	Blue
Big Yellow Taxi	Counting Crows ft Vanessa
Borderline	Glee
Build to Last	Malee
Clumsy	Fergie
Dancing With Myself	Glee
Dear God	Avenged sevenfold
Decode	Paramore
Deep Inside Of You	Third Eye Blind
Defying Gravity	Glee
Fill Me In	Craig David
Fireflies	Owlcity
Give you hell	All American Rejects
Good Girls Go Bad	Cobra Starship
Halo	Beyonce
Hanya Untukmu	Ten2Five
Hate On Me	Glee
Haven’t Met You Yet	Michael Buble
Heartless	Kanye West
I Belong to You	Muse
I Can’t Dance	High School Musical
I Want You to Want Me	Letters to Cleo
I’m Walking Away	Craig David
I’ve Cried Enough	Lara Fabian
Imma Be	Black Eyed Peas
In My Head	Jason Derulo
In Our Lifetime	Texas
Jenny	Click Five
Jumper	Third Eye Blind
Kangen	Dewa 19
Keep Holding On	Glee
Kings and Queens	30 Second to Mars
La la la Land	Demi Lovato
Leavin	Jesse McCartney
Let It Go	Cavo
Let Me Go	Three Doors Down
Like A Prayer	Glee
Like A Virgin	Glee
Lips of An Angel	Hinder
Little Miss Obsessive	Ashlee Simpson
Lost Without You	Robin Thicke
Love Song	Sara Bareilles
Mad	NeYo
Maybe This Time	Glee
Mercy – Cover	One Republic
My Life Would Stuck Without You	Glee
Need You Know	Lady Antabellum
Never Be The Same Again	Melanie C
Never Think	Robert Pattinson
No Air	Glee
Obviously	McFly
One Less Lonely Girl	Justin Bieber
One Time	Justin Bieber
Only When I Sleep	The Corrs
Over It	Katherine McPhee
Paper Planes	M.I.A
PDA	John Legend
Possibility	Lykke Li
Rendezvous	Craig David
Rescue Me	Ultra
Rome Wasn’t Build in a Day	Morcheeba
Running Away	Hoobastank
Satellite Heart	Anya Marina
Say It Once	Ultra
Say OK	Vanessa Hudgens
Senorita	Justin Timberlake
Seven Days	Craig David
Shut Up and Let Me Go	The Tings Tings
Smile	Glee
Supermassive Black Hole	Muse
Supermodel	Same Same
Sweet Caroline	Glee
Take A Bow	Rihanna
Take A Bow	Glee
Taking Chances	Glee
Takkan Ada Aku Lagi	ELLO
The Poison	The All American Rejects
Thinking of You	Katty Perry
Tremble For My Beloved	Collective Soul
Trouble is a Friend	Lenka
Two is Better Than One	Boys Like Girls
Unbelievable	Craig David
Unromantic	Drew
Vogue	Glee
Wait For You	Elliot Yamin
Watcha Say	Jason Derulo
What Took You So Long	Emma Bunton
What’s Your Flava	Craig David
When I’m Gone	Simple Plan
Witch Doctor	Alvin and The Chipmunks
You Keep Me Hangin On	Glee

Nikmat sendiri

Sesuatu yang selalu gw nikmati dari dulu adalah kesendirian. I admit that I can’t get along with people so fast. I’m tend to protect my self, especially when I’m new in place. Ternyata belakangan gw tau itu bukan karena gw lonely, bagaimanapun juga gw enjoy my moment pada saat jalan ma teman2. Hal ini lebih terjadi karena sifat I.N.T.R.O.V.E.R.T gw…Aha! like i never knew before..

Tapi ini beda..awalnya yang gw tau introvert itu adalah sifat menutup diri terhadap lingkungan sekitar kita..but it’s (kinda) WRONG! Yeah setidaknya itu salah satu yang gw pelajari pada saat gw mengikuti training yang diadakan oleh mantan perusahaan gw.

Introvert dan Extrovert adalah kondisi yang kita butuhkan untuk me-recharge energi kita yang terbuang. Jadi, kalau orang introvert itu akan cendrung membutuhkan me-time untuk me-recharge energinya. Sedangkan orang yang memiliki sifat extrovert, dalam me-recharge diri mereka membutuhkan berada di tengah2 khalayak ramai. Mulai masuk akal kan sekarang kenapa orang introvert juga bisa punya banyak teman. Haha..

Seringkali disaat kita membutuhkan tambahan energi baru, waktu-nya tidak tepat. Mungkin kita sedang ada di kantor, di jalan atau dimana pun ditengah keramaian. Jadi apa yang biasa gw lakukan untuk me-recharge energi gw? Mungkin bisa dicontoh (haha…)

• Biasanya gw akan membuat seakan-akan diri gw dikelilingi oleh perisai tak kasat mata dmana tidak ada seorang pun bisa masuk tanpa seijin gw (mantab bener imajinasi gw yak?).
• Setelah itu gw akan men-disable indra gw yang bernama pendengaran. Hal ini bisa gw lakukan dengan terlibat total dengan apa yang gw lakukan. Misalnya put my earphone on and listen to music, reading my book and try to imagine the scene from it, etc. Even i can see (not watch) TV and fun with my mind…
• Combine all of the above..Di kondisi dimana sangat crowded dan dapat membuat gw mudah teralihkan, gw akan melakukan semua cara itu sekaligus..dan benar2 tenggelam dengan apa yang gw lakuin

Hal ini kalau didiamkan atau tidak ada orang yang berusaha untuk “masuk” bisa berlangsung sangat lama. And to be honest.. I LOVE IT! ^^

Bebenah Lagi

Di saat diterjang kebosanan kronis karena belum ada project (maklum karyawan baru di perusahaan baru…) rasanya menulis blog lagi adalah hal yang sangat tepat. Yah, karena dengan menulis blog bisa membuat gw:

1. Terlihat sibuk dan asik di depan laptop dan tidak membuat manager ku meradang..HA! (sorry bos, i’ve done my SOP reading and i did all my online training.. haha)

2. Bebas mengungkapkan pendapat tentang sesuatu

3. Membuatku membrows topik-topik menarik dan menambah pengetahuan dalam rangka mengisi (ulang) blog ku ini

4. Mengembalikan kewarasan…huh?.. iyah, karena di blog yang lama tapi baru ini gw pengen jujur terhadap diri sendiri

5. Mengingat hal2 yang membuat gw tertarik ataupun hal2 yang pernah terjadi sama gw..sapa tau (Amiiiinnn….) blog kali ini berlangsung lama (crossing finger and hope to God)

Serta hal2 lain yang membuat blog ini menjadi suatu hal yang berguna dan menjadi keputusan yang positif.

Gw gak berharap yang neko-neko…gw ingin menjadi diri gw utuh seutuhnya di blog ini..(once again crossing finger and hope to God)

Kok jadi seperti membuat ground rules untuk diri sendiri dalam memposting blog ya…

Ah…ndak popo…sudah  bertekat bulat untuk menjadi diri sendiri..

Regards,

Bunnyteeth